Till Love Finds Me

What are we without love?

There are so many things in this world that we do not understand and probably never will. Will we ever find the one that was made for us for God had made us in pairs? How long does it take? This reminds me of a book I read entitled 'Where Rainbows End'. Both the man and the woman in the story were meant to be with each other but they only got together when they were aged 50+.

See, love is a strange thing. When you're with someone, you have to know when to let loose your string and when to hold it tight. When it's there, you'll feel it. Sometimes, you may think its fooling with you because your heart gets shattered again and again. But somehow, love will one day manage to mend your broken heart.

I'm still waiting for mine. Till then, my heart will always be sealed in this…ice barrier. Maybe one day, he'll be mine. Just some day…

Bad Omens.

I have no idea why I'm not excited for tomorrow night. I mean, I am excited but just not as much. I have bad feelings though. As though something bad is bound to happen, I hope not.

But something terrible did happen today. A tiny tornado, as what my neighbors said passed by our neighborhood and destroyed some of our roof tiles. They were blown away and I swear it was the scariest moment so far in my life. I thought it was just a strong wind but no! It lasted for few minutes and then we heard sounds like glass breaking and goodness, I thought we're gone. I'm not gonna lie, I was really scared.

Sigh. I really don't feel good with all the things that had happened for the past months. I'm worried, for my mom and sisters. The neighborhood ain't that safe and recently there are two suspicious Malay guys spying around here. I really really really don't feel good. Oh God, I don't want anything to happen. I don't know if its just me being paranoid or my sixth sense is telling me something. I need to stay calm.

Abandoned

I'm pissed. Not exactly very angry, more like hurt. I feel 'abandoned'. The two people who once told me that they'd be there for me no matter what, are currently very 'busy' it seems.

My weakness; trusting one so easily. He has never, not replied my texts. Okay I get it that they both have a girlfriend but I still can't help it. You have time for your girlfriend but not your friend?

I think I sounded like a very pampered girl. Probably. Because the both of them are like my elder brothers. They'd listen to me whine about stuffs and my relationships. They're like my love doctors. And now the both of them disappeared somewhere!
SIGH!

Fantasy & Reality

Salve! (: It means 'Hi' in Italian.
Recently, I've read a book in Wattpad entitled 'The Italian Billionaire's Lover' which caught me in a fantasy.
Admit it, who wouldn't want a man who is rich, good looking, kind hearted, family loving, smart and so on ? Every girl dreams of having a man like that, so do I. But fantasy stays unreal, whereas reality is the truth. Yes, the story got me hyped up about Italian language because I find it beautiful! Learning a new language does one no harm, si? (:

Anyway, December has been pretty good so far. The days are of course tiring with undang classes and spending time with friends. My wish of 'hibernating' after SPM can never be fulfilled. We went on roaming the streets of Ipoh Old Town on Sunday. The sun was blazing although it was only 10+ in the morning. However, we got some pretty amazing photos and yea, some quality time together. I'd do it all over again.

It's pretty funny sometimes how we seek closure even to a person whom we just met and know, just because he's the only person there you know. Maybe it's just our nature to do so (:

Arrivederci!

Thankful, blessed.

Hello blog.

SPM is officially over and I'm no longer a high school student. I'm now considered as an ex-MGS student and I swear I miss school, at this very moment. On the last day of exam, the very last paper and the very last few minutes, it was like a……sudden flashback. Every single moment spent in Trinity Hall just came rushing back.

We've had our first day in Form One in there, our PMR, Hari Anugerah, Mrs Lee's farewell, IU days and so on and we ended my school days in the same hall. Wow. I've had amazing years in that amazing school with some amazing people. Amazing memories were created during amazing moments. Amazing, huh?

Now that I'm no longer a high school student, I guess I need to start worrying about college/poly? Frankly speaking, I'm a teensy bit not prepared for the world. My grandpa keeps on saying that the family's future depends on ME. Okay, now imagine the pressure I'm facing.

On the bright side, things with dad are getting better. He called me twice in less than a week's time. I'm happy (: Honestly, I'm blessed to even have a family. Think of those who dream of having one, but still they're alone. So, thank You God.

Count your blessings, not what you lack of.