Goodbyes are only temporary

June 19 10:52am, Wednesday

Hi, here I am again with a post 'on-the-go'. This time it's different; I'm leaving home, leaving ipoh and heading back to Singapore. I hate goodbyes, never good at it and I'll probably would not improve. Others might think I'm a little 'cold-hearted' or so because I avoid all the huggings and kissing before parting. Well, it's because all these make me miss home and the people here even more and believe me when I say you do not want to cry in public. It's a very relevant reason, no? I prefer to stay strong, even if its just on the surface. Parting is not for forever, unless its death but even so, the person who passed away will be kept dearly in our heart. Goodbyes are only temporary. One can only pray for the best.

Maybe this is why some people prefer to be unattached and they even refuse to be close to family members. Parting is painful especially when you have to leave alone and be by yourself. When someone very close to you dies, how would you feel? The effect may vary for everyone but for me, I don't know how I will handle it. The emptiness will be there and the longing as well. This is why I prefer not to get too attached to others. In other ways, they wouldn't feel so painful when I'm gone someday.

Crapping, ain't I? But I believe some people do think the same. Now that I'm sitting here waiting for my flight, I realize that sometimes you got to sacrifice one thing for another. Soon I will have my own life and I'll have to leave everything behind. Who would've thought that letting go would be this difficult?

Till then…goodbye.

'Do not let evil defeat you, do not let darkness surrounds your heart. Fight away the loneliness, remember our Father above. For he's always watching us, wherever we go…"