I hate that I cried, why can't I be stronger? I hate myself for making mistakes. I hate that I can't be a person who can leave her work behind, even unsettled problems, and just go straight home. I hate that there's nobody here to listen. I hate that the one closest to me did not offer a solution instead making me feel worse. I hate everything right now. I hate myself for being so weak. Oh and, I hate passwords and pins as well.
Its a decision I have to make and I very well know what it is but I refuse to accept the decision made. But right now, it seems to be the best solution if I stay. Then I'll just rot here, or I could go back to campus every morning/evening and work the shit out of myself; exhaust myself, push myself so I don't feel anything else but the exhaustion. Yes, sounds like a good idea.
Way to go, Charlotte. I don't know if you're a strong girl, or you're just a stupid careless child. Bravo.
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